my day

Dear MY ONE & ONLY yangy boy,
Today was a truly wonderful day to have spent with you. Started the day to a bit of confusion. Getting on the same train with your mother, while I thought you also boarded the same train. Sorry I hung up on you, I thought you were down the carriage but soon to find out as i walked down that you weren't. Then I got sad. But we met each other at Murumbeena station at 7:31 this morning. after holding notes and figuring out the last qn of your handout, we got off at melb central. I love seeing you off at the tram stop as you start your day, just so i can see you for that little bit longer, and smile as i walk towards my building. >>>hectic running, printing, picture fixing, art shop buying, cutting, lift taking up and down up and down . . comp entry finished! >>>> 9:36 missed call from 'the boyfriend'. RUN RUN RUN to 7/11. RUN RUN RUN to state library. ring ring boyfriend. get an anonymous hug from behind on the stairs of state. only 9:53. hunger timee! after walking in the melb central direction, turn back and head to QV. deciding to have hot portugese soup, we sat down and blew and sipped and dunked and chatted and hugged and ate. going past the not open till 11 japanese tshirt shop 'aoi tshirts' headed towards state library take 2. >>locker locker, catalogue together, shelf 600-620>>> yay we sat next to each other while studying and that made me extremely happy chappy. although you looked like you were still hungry or tired, we didnt have to resort to passing notes under desks or throwing around rubbers ^^ . study study study 12:30. get bags from lockers and exit state through Mr. Tulks cafe. will eat there one day. need a microwave! tram tram tram. ta-da! microwave. eating with your friends at the cafeteria was fun, we never eat together at my building, everyone just disperses after class (or is hectic mad). listened to some good jay chou piano music before returning to class. boring boring class, me feeling sorry for polite soft japanese teacher who cant control the class. 4 oclock everyone bails. which means. . its time to meet yangy, but not just yet! shopping first of course. I didnt find any good jumpers, except for in the mens section of every store, nice rings in a heart shape =) some boots, skirts, $30 esprit shorts!, and of course NOUGAT. the sales person kept feeding me taste testers like 10, and kept blessing my with. . er. .nougat. it was yummy. i knew you'd be hungry from your obvious sugar low in the morning, it was either nougat or bubblecup. waiting for you at the tram stop, to welcome you home sweet home. with no ideas where to go for dinner, walk up to swanston, then down to flinders. stops at dumpling plus. I had a wonderful delicious dinner with you, as always. dinners always special with you. we had an absollute feast of a meal, starting with appetisers of shanghai steamed dumplings eaten yang and tracy wayy!, a main dish of handmade thin and thick noodles beef and pork flavoured, with an iced lemon tea. ahhhhh such is good life. >>>SYD MEAD forum!! seeing my friends and being in that atmosphere is amazing. what i learnt from syd mead : 'I dun really know what these machines do, or where all these wires are connected to, but that doesnt matter, cos no body knows and it simply suits the environment'. >>carrying a large mass down a street on a dark warm night, with the teacher, friends, and YOU. going to the train station, and having time to spare sitting under the old fashioned monumental clock, talking about what motivates you and me. >>

I LOVE YOU SO SO SO SO MUCH YANG! I KNOW YOU APPRECIATE IT, I KNOW YOU'LL WORK HARD FOR IT, SO DON'T EVER DOUBT YOURSELF. you don't need to win awards, just to win me over. you just have to strive for something you believe in, something to achieve no matter how outrageously big or small that achievement is :) you can start a charity, you are already on your way to helping people, something I can't physically do! and that IS amazing! there was a little boy in the news years ago that donated thousands of dollars to children without toys by buying them christmas presents. he was only 7 or 8 so his parents believed in his heart and will, and they funded all the presents for him. if you have an aspiration, people will believe in you, and you will achieve many great things yang.
REMEMBER I LOVE YOU

so, i read your blog and its amazing how much detail you can remember from them. whenever i dream, i always forget them when i wake up no matter how interesting they were, or how much i wanted to tell you about it when i saw you next.

No matter how many rough patches we come across, I will still always love you, even if we end up with a worn out and tattered blanket. It'll be all sewn up and we can huddle together with it when we're 60 and it shall keep us warm during the long cold nights.

Im sorry for pushing you today. Im sorry for asking so many questions.

You are mine as I am yours. I will always belong to you as you will to me, because I have chosen YOU, Yang. I know you have faith in us, so just believe in it.

-LOVE TRACY